The Beast.

I sit in the dark, it's a cold and lonely place. I wonder if you are lurking in the shadows while I remain blissfully unaware of your presence. A blank stare lies across my face. I gaze out of the window. Past the midnight blue sky, beyond the gray veil of clouds embedded with diamonds; a perfect night. I am awed by the moon and all of its stages from crescent to a new. My soul searches for you, my mind beckons you and my body desires your touch. Where art thou howl?

~ Kendrick

I GO GREEN...

I also Hate Holidays. lol But really today was a beautiful day not to mention it was Saint Patty's Day. Today it killed me to see so many pigmented people walking around with emerald eyes and green shoelaces. Nice weather for a cliche holiday that left me wondering... "Where are my lucky charms?"


So here I sit on the other side of the rainbow as happy as can be. Living life and taking full responsibility for everything I am and everything I am not. Thank god I'm not a leprechaun. It has to be pretty stressful on the little guys. I mean they are gingers who don't tan well...at all. But keeping a pot of gold safe is as tough as keeping my heart under lock and key. Everyone seems to want a bite of Kendrick. I have love and I give as much as I take and sometimes more.



Everything happens for a reason so they say. I guess I'm one of the lucky ones. I have family, friends and a few leprechauns on the side. ;-)=

"You can catch me after the rain. I'll be at the other side. Of the colorful bow. Bent across the sky."

~ Kendrick

Love Quote.

Here is a little piece of me.

"There is a place in time and a time within a place where everything is perfect. Does it exist? You bet... Every time I look into your eyes."

~ Kendrick

On a never ending Quest...

In life we all search for something. We may search for happiness, money, love and including ourselves. Being that I am happy with the way things are right now ( and I tend to be happy all the time) I believe nothing can make make us so unhappy or unsatisfied that we can't pull through to true happiness. Whenever I am in a situation that I know is no good for me or beneficial for growth I leave; I walk away. I believe we are in control of our own happiness. So ask yourself "What makes me happy?" And do whatever you have to do to bring that happiness through to you everyday.

Now some may believe money is happiness and some may think that money is the root of all evil. But I will tell you what money can and cannot buy. Money can buy you cute shoes, a nice new haircut, a car, a house and even temporary friends. But with all of the things you can buy with money does that credit card also buy you happiness? Money cannot buy you true happiness, money cannot buy you love, money cannot buy you back lost time. True happiness has to come from within. So with each swipe of your Visa ask yourself "Am I buying something that truly makes me happy?" Let me know if you can answer this.



Now the biggie. That's right; love. Many of us are in search of "the one". The "one" that will come along and scoop us out of the single line and into a life of bliss. You may ask "Is there someone really out there for me?" And the answer to that is of course there is. They are just hidden under a rock keeping a close watch on you waiting for the right time to approach. Now just like money, I do not recommend depending on someone or something else to make you happy. It's okay to be in a relationship with yourself. I love myself and that is enough. Even though at the end of the day it is comforting to know that someone out there really loves you for who you are (i.e. Family/friends). Now TELL yourself this "There is always one person that will love me." And that person is you.


Last but certainly not least is being on a never ending quest to find ourselves. I find something new about myself everyday. From things I like to things I dislike. And based off of the oh so many things I have experienced in life I continue to grow and blossom into the person I am today. I am never satisfied with just knowing enough to get by. There are so many mysteries of the world unsolved and so much knowledge that is available FOR FREE (i.e. Libraries, elders, museums). If you close yourself off to the new ways of life you may miss out in all the fun which could bring you that happiness, the money and even that one true love. Ask yourself this "If I met me...would I know me?"


At the end of the day You control your own fate. You control your own happiness. You are in control of your own life. I am in control of my own destiny, my own happiness, my own money, and the people that I choose to love.

~ Kendrick

Faux Friends

So this year is all about moving forward correct? Well there have been snakes dwelling in my yard for too long and its time for me to bring out the lawn mower. That's right get rid of these pests which seem to pop up in text messages, random phone calls, and emails. One snake whose rent was due has gotten the eviction notice. This snake claimed to be my "bestie" while also being a "bitch". Here's how it all went down.

Snake: Are we even still friends? (after at least a month of not talking)

Me: Yea (I'm not going to deny someone who still wants to give it a try)
*A couple seconds later*

Me: You know I could really care less about the status of our friendship. I have my priorities and you have yours.

Snake: Thanks for being honest.
Snake: I usually don't keep friends this long anyway.

FIN.

Later on that night I was on Twitter <---- follow on the side. And I spotted the snakes account and to my not so surprise the BIO section read: "LOVES SEX". Now me being the private person that I am... I do not like when people put themselves out there. So can you say #BLOCKED.

I get a txt later from the snake...it was some bullshit. I barely glanced and just deleted the message. My Reply was "its been over #okbye."

END OF STORY FOLKS.

Sometimes you just have to let things go and move on. When you get bit by a snake they tell you to suck the poison out right? That's what I'm doing... sucking the poison out of my life.

Okay #NEXT


~ Kendrick