Who Am I ????

     This blog should be called WHO I AM because as of late everyone seems to have these preconceived notions about who I happen to be. I use to say "I am whatever you think I am" because I simply didn't care about what others thought; now I'm putting it all out there. There are people who believe that I'm just another gay guy who is supposed to be flamboyant and worships Beyonce. I couldn't be further from that stereotype. I actually worship Rihanna. LOL, just kidding. I'm more than my sexual orientation. I'm a man that just happens to be attracted to other men and gorgeous women.

      There are people who say that I scream SEX. Maybe it is because of my Scorpio horoscope. I don't know; I don't try to be sexy. I asked some of my close friends and they just said I give off a vibe and one said that it was all in my eyes. #KanyeShrug. Being sexy is not a bad thing I guess. You guys haven't seen me 1st thing in the morning. Some people think I'm self absorbed when I just really have a healthy amount of confidence and self-esteem but who wants to be a Debbie Downer?

     I hate when people say that I'm trying to be something. As if everyday is Halloween and I'm just playing dress up. I don't like the term "trying"... I'm not trying to be anything. There's no adjective that can describe me. A lot a things that people assume about me are just that...assumptions. I don't dare to be different. I just am.

I love who I am. I own who I am. My body and my soul are the only things that truly belong to me in this life. No one and or no thing could take myself away from me. Who I am today will be who I am tomorrow... just another day wiser. ;-)

- Renard

Under Construction...

     As you all probably know, I'm single. That's definitely something to be happy about and enjoy; especially when you're young. I have come across many different people and personalities in life so far and I'm discovering more and more about myself and the ways of others. I love all people. Even the annoying, self righteous and the repugnant ones. They all can get a hug and a smile because that's just the kind of person I am.

     The funny thing is I'm writing this entry because on my way to work everyday I ride past the workplace of my ex. And every time I ride past there is always construction taking place. Building something better and working on what needs to be fixed: under construction.

     I have taken the time out from the social scene for a while just to do some self reflection. I call it being on a "people diet". It makes sense and I recommend everyone to try it. I'm the most personable, social butterfly I know and I still need that time off to give back to myself. So if I don't reply to txt messages promptly, get on social media websites often or even answer the phone. I will get back to you soon. Just like the recording says "leave a message after the beep, ttyl".

- Renard

Motivation.

For some, it may be the money, maybe it's to get to their "happy", or even to prove something to someone.

     Whatever your motivation may be, make sure you do it for YOU. That is the most important thing. Money only last as long as your making it, happiness is not a destination, and those extra pounds you want to shed should be done because YOU want to lose the spare tire... No one else. Just you. Life is script and you're the author. Go apply for that job, move to a new location, save those dollars, get that degree, find yourself a good guy or lady, lose the weight. Be brave, fearless, courageous and most importantly... get motivated to do what YOU want to do in life.

Be who you want to be.

- Renard

Relationship 101:

     The topic of sex, love, pain etc... has always been kinda deja vu to me. It's always the same scenario. Boy meets girl, girl falls for boy or vice versa. One is more dominant and the other more passive. Blah Blah Blah. Let the game begin with Relationship 101. I recently had several conversations with friends on relationships and things of that matter. I have found that a lot of us don't even know what a relationship is. We build up ideas in our head that relationships are supposed to be this picture perfect, cookie cutter concept based on what we see in movies, books, reality etc.

     I have a female friend who desperately wants to be in a relationship. Now this goes back to the build up of what a relationship should be. It looks good on paper but in reality you never know what you really want until you test the waters. The idea of a long term relationship may look good but six months in and after the "honeymoon stage" you may notice things about the other person that may be hard to swallow. Just look at these movies as a reference: What's Love Got to Do With It and Waiting to Exhale. Are you Tina or are you Bernie?

      I also talked with one of my male friends who said he wouldn't mind a relationship just because he gets bored being by himself. "Well, why can't you entertain yourself?" I asked. The response was "There's nothing to do by myself". Translation: "I don't want to be seen as a loner going out to eat or to the movies by myself." There is plenty to do by yourself and quite frankly I enjoy making moves by myself sometimes. It can be fun; exciting even. You can meet new people without the crowd of your friends or a date. I call it being in a relationship with yourself.


     Two of my associates have said they haven't had sex in months. One admitting it has been a whole year. The two associates have said they wouldn't mind someone to cuddle with... and we all know what cuddling leads to.

Mhmmmm. I even know a few virgins who aren't strung out on the idea of sex or a relationship.

     Some of us believe in finding the "one" and some of us believe in friends with benefits. There's a balance and a comparison in there somewhere. A relationship is a concept that we all fall in love with but aren't willing to see past the glitz and glamor to reveal what the true meaning of it is.

When you find out, let me know.

-Renard

Get Back to Business

     August has been one of those uninspiring months for me. I have actually been really busy... (just look at my last Twitter update). Besides being busy I have had absolutely nothing to talk about. Things that were once important became my last priority and the winds have changed...literally. In August I not only experienced my 2nd earthquake but I also survived that bitch of a hurricane "Irene" with no scratches; just a few days without electricity. I hope everyone had a productive month and I will make it a point to do more posts in the near future. 

Let's get back to business.

BTW, Beyoncé is knocked up ya'll! *giggles*