Express Yourself!

Everyday the world awakes and goes about their normal routine of the morning stretch followed by some sort of morning ritual. For some it's a shower that gets them going and for others it's a tall caffeinated drink but for me it's what I'm going to wear; who am I going to be today?

Everyday celebrities and a select few of us normal folk arise and get fabulous for the world to see. I Vito my entire wardrobe the night before so that when I awake I will have some clue as to what I will wear and how I will present myself. So I wake up wipe the dust from my eyes and put some music on, do my morning ritual, check the news to see the weather forecast and then its on. I stumble through pairs of shoes scattered across the floor and rumble through my closet as I glance over to my clock to make sure I'm not running late because it's one thing to be fashionably late and just plain late.

After looking at and trying on different garments I finally throw something together that just feels right. Because you have to wear the clothes.. not let the clothes wear you. The whole point is that I express myself in many different ways. Whether I write, state my P.O.V, or just get dressed; I live with purpose.

After all, I don't get dressed up NOT to be seen. lol

HEAT WAVE 2011

 

Well here I am, I survived the heat wave that hit up and down the east coast. Temperatures sky rocketed to 103 degrees with heat index's up to 127. Although it has grown to more comfortable temperature in the DMV I still feel as if this heat wave is not over. We shall see. Until then you will find me indoors with the a/c on full blast. I like being wet, but not with sweat.. well maybe. ;-) 

Amy Amy Amy...

"3 shots of Jack
straight and back to back
Here I go Amy
On my way Back to Black"

140 Words or Less...

In this era of technological abbreviations it is a lot easier to communicate via web, phone etc... But is the ever advancing world of technology making private life not so personal?

Throughout the day I like to take to my blackberry and storm the web/facebook/twitter with things that happen around me and random ideas that just happen to pop into my head based off the trending topic of the day. While scrolling my never ending timeline I see information from those I follow which leave very little to the imagination.

Twitter/Facebook are some of the most self incriminating sites that people venture to each day. Some take to the web to rant about their "oomf" who called them at 3am last night and some, just to inform you of which song they are "now playing" (like we give a shit). There are those who go from married to divorced to widowed and then back to single within an hour and then there are people who just want to slap you across the face with a happy stick because they are having such an awesome day. Well I'm not happy.



People, WE DON'T NEED TO KNOW YOUR EVERY MOVE..and you shouldn't want us to. I mean think about it. Do you really want your serial killer looking stalker to know that your down the street at the local Starbucks enjoying a Venti Frappuccino? NO.. didn't think so. So next time you think about tweeting, posting a status, or informing the public that your down the street and around the corner REMEMBER that crazy follower "@desperatedebbie" or Facebook friend "Jerome "CaniGetyaNumber" Jenkins" is following everything you say/do.

Something to think about.


Renard

Forgiveness Pt. 1

When I was younger I did things without thinking them through first...as I still sometimes do today. I learned in order to avoid the whole "I'm sorry for..blah" I had to think things through and look at the bigger picture. Such as how the other person would feel or react to my words or my actions. You will be surprised what I came up with..

I have been deeply hurt by people close to me and those not so close to me. It's that one comment from someone that makes your heart just clench like its been put through a juicer. And for those moments, you experience rage, anger and all the above. You want to kill the person that brought such negative emotions into your cool demeanor.. but you also want to cry while stabbing them in the neck. The reason for that is a) what they said was the cold hard truth. b) the person that said those words or did you wrong was someone you love. c) you never knew/thought a person could be so cruel. We tend to take things that people we don't know or love say with a grain of salt. While those who we do care about and respect, their words, cut like knives.

The thing is how do we get over hurtful things people say or do... it is of course forgiveness. Forgiveness is often sought after in order to heal, BUT forgiveness starts within ourselves. We have to say "I forgive you", mentally in order to get over the hurdle that has hurt us emotionally. Now I know it feels a lot better when someone comes begging for forgiveness with your favorite food or flowers in hand (like a boyfriend or girlfriend who did something wrong) but the reality is forgiveness is something that happens from within.

Who wants to hold a grudge right? Get over it. Live

Renard

The Past..Present...and the Unknown

Over the past year I have found peace and acceptance within myself. I have prayed for a complete makeover and boy was I in for a HUGE wake up call. Those around me have showed me their true colors. Love was lost then found...then lost again. There's really no such thing as a fairytale ending. You have to make a change for yourself.. and it starts with you. Those close to me.. my family have become my bitter enemies and friendships have grown stronger than ever. I thank the big guy upstairs for opening my eyes and allowing me to see that "hey, not everyone's gonna like Renard".. that's life.


As far as love is concerned I was blinded by a sweet personality and insecurities that I wasn't ready to face yet. I fell in love in October and out of it by March. The biggest issue was communication and understanding. I play by my rules and he played by his. But what can I say...I'm selfish. That's just me.



I have since faced certain things and have overcome obstacles that have stood in my way of complete happiness. Do I regret anything that has happened thus far.. hmmm maybe.. Am I completely satisfied with life right now.. Hell NO. But it gets better, I know it does. And what can I say about the future other than the fact that I can close my eyes before I go to sleep and pray for a better tomorrow.

Until tomorrow comes, take care for now.

Renard

It's been a GOOD MIN!

It has been over a year since I have taken the time out to write..publicly. I'm really interested in doing this shit again. I was suddenly drawn to write. Now bear with me because I'm going to be doing a lot of catching up.



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