Hello 2012...

I hope everyone has had a very merry Christmas and I wish everyone a prosperous year.

     The year of 2011 has been a roller coaster ride for me and I'm glad it has finally came to an end. I've made it over the hill and survived all of the twists and turns and I'm grateful to still be here... To live to see another day. The holiday season is all about the celebration of life. When the clock strikes midnight marking the end of a year; everything comes full circle.

     Everything that has happened in 2011 simply becomes a thing of the past. Time to start anew... time to create new memories and celebrate being alive. Whether you watch the ball drop live in Times Square or watched it live in the comfort of your own home we all know that the dropping of the ball symbolizes hope for a better tomorrow and the rebirth of mankind.

     As we bid farewell to 2011 I couldn't help but think of all that I have accomplished and what great things lie ahead. Know that you can make a difference in someones life. Know that you are beautifully human and most importantly, know that you are loved. Take a deep breath and breathe new life into 2012.

Until tomorrow comes, take care for now.

- Renard

Land of the Misfit Hoes.

     In a world where celebrities are looked at as deities instead of regular human beings such as ourselves I see why it is easy to lose touch with "reality". I think it starts when we're all young. Disney makes movies with happy endings.  You know the whole song and dance... princesses always have the picture perfect lives with just the right amount of drama to keep them busy until they find prince charming. But what if Ciderella didn't go to the ball? Would she have gotten a 9-5 and bought her own glass slippers RED BOTTOMS?

      Everyone wants the glamorous life complete with a closet full of expensive things, a successful man to take care of them and a myriad of people that follow and answer every beck and call. Who wouldn't like that? To be honest, I would love designers begging to dress me. All I would have to do is go out to eat at some fancy restaurant and get paid. Everything would come easy. My cardio would consist of me lifting my finger to swipe my black card...with no credit limit. 

     You have girls who are famous for just being famous like Amber Rose, Paris Hilton, and Kim Kardashian. The only difference is that they have connections, a good stylist, scandal, a banging body and most importantly MONEY. Kim K is all over the media because of her failed marriage fluke to Kris Humphries. Let's face it, Kris Humphries got got. Although I do have a ton of respect for Kim for milking the media tit for as long as she did. The girl got paid big time. All she has to do is continue to keep folk interested by doing the least. I can't knock her grind... she has earned it by sucking and fucking her way to the top. Kim K... girl.. I'm just "Keeping it Real".

     I guess reality stars and media whores can teach us all a lesson and that is if they aren't talking about you then you must be doing something wrong. So until I get to where I'm going I'm gonna grind until my goals are fulfilled and dreams become reality.
   

- Renard

We Found Love?

"Love can be found like pennies on the ground... that shit isn't love."

     Some of us would like to think that we have found love in a hopeless place but your odds in finding love in a hopeless place is like finding an $80.00 bill in the middle of Target®. If that's the case then I found love in a back of a subway car... I didn't know their name, but we fucked... and I LOVED it.

     When it comes to love people take it to new extremes. Some think that this idea of love is something that is supposed to be cookie cutter perfect, complete with a white picket fence and a few children. Some think that love consist of random moments of drama and make up sex. While love to me cannot be defined by words, but I do feel that love is some type of deep complex feeling/emotional bond with another.

     The media doesn't necessarily give good examples of what love is (i.e. Chris Brown & Rihanna or even Bey & Jay). I always say what's normal for me isn't always considered normal to others. So whatever works for you may be best... for you. If you ask Michelle how she found Barack or even how Oprah found Gayle, I'm pretty sure they won't say they found their love in a hopeless place... Now Bobby and Whitney, that's a different story. LOL ;-)

 

P.S. I love We Found Love in a Hopeless Place... and the video is hot.

- Renard

On a never ending Quest...

In life we all search for something. We may search for happiness, money, love and including ourselves. Being that I am happy with the way things are right now ( and I tend to be happy all the time) I believe nothing can make make us so unhappy or unsatisfied that we can't pull through to true happiness. Whenever I am in a situation that I know is no good for me or beneficial for growth I leave; I walk away. I believe we are in control of our own happiness. So ask yourself "What makes me happy?" And do whatever you have to do to bring that happiness through to you everyday.

Now some may believe money is happiness and some may think that money is the root of all evil. But I will tell you what money can and cannot buy. Money can buy you cute shoes, a nice new haircut, a car, a house and even temporary friends. But with all of the things you can buy with money does that credit card also buy you happiness? Money cannot buy you true happiness, money cannot buy you love, money cannot buy you back lost time. True happiness has to come from within. So with each swipe of your Visa ask yourself "Am I buying something that truly makes me happy?" Let me know if you can answer this.



Now the biggie. That's right; love. Many of us are in search of "the one". The "one" that will come along and scoop us out of the single line and into a life of bliss. You may ask "Is there someone really out there for me?" And the answer to that is of course there is. They are just hidden under a rock keeping a close watch on you waiting for the right time to approach. Now just like money, I do not recommend depending on someone or something else to make you happy. It's okay to be in a relationship with yourself. I love myself and that is enough. Even though at the end of the day it is comforting to know that someone out there really loves you for who you are (i.e. Family/friends). Now TELL yourself this "There is always one person that will love me." And that person is you.


Last but certainly not least is being on a never ending quest to find ourselves. I find something new about myself everyday. From things I like to things I dislike. And based off of the oh so many things I have experienced in life I continue to grow and blossom into the person I am today. I am never satisfied with just knowing enough to get by. There are so many mysteries of the world unsolved and so much knowledge that is available FOR FREE (i.e. Libraries, elders, museums). If you close yourself off to the new ways of life you may miss out in all the fun which could bring you that happiness, the money and even that one true love. Ask yourself this "If I met me...would I know me?"


At the end of the day You control your own fate. You control your own happiness. You are in control of your own life. I am in control of my own destiny, my own happiness, my own money, and the people that I choose to love.

~ Kendrick

Cabin Fever...

Once again I am trapped inside with hopes of Spring to come early this year. The snow outside paints a different story. The snow seems to destroy my dreams turning my hopes into a hopeless reality where there is a sled dog race being held outside of my window. Each snow flake seems to have a word or phrase on it such as "I come to destroy your social life" and "LOL, try again next season" mocking in what I truly believe is the worst blizzard to hit the DMV since the last millenium. Doesn't the snow know who I am? I need to be around a different environment at least every other day if not everyday. I need to be taken out of my comfort zone to experience something new and marvelous or something frighting and life changing. Did I mention that I am in dire need of an intense make out session?

I'm Dying over here.

So until this stuff melts away I will be taking down this snow one flake at a time. Just me and this blow dryer. LOL ;-) Just kiddin.

Be Safe,

~ Kendrick

Time... how many of us have it?

I'm back once again to blog about nothing, but I feel the need to add my .36839 cents into everything so here it is. I awoke out of my slumber way too early for anyone's comfort zone, avoided my mirror and headed down stairs dodging rays of sunlight peering through the blinds. Sound like a vampire right? The next thing your expecting me to say is that I had a vats of blood to go with the dry cereal I ate. Not at all just my favorite organic whole milk from Trader Joes. So here I sit on the couch in which it seems everyone inhabits when eating. I didn't even feel like turning on the blank screen that sat before me, mocking me with its reflection. I sat and took my first real breath of the morning which surprisingly smelled pleasant. (good toothpaste huh?) I gobbled down the meal of 40 something year old women on a diet (Cherrios) and just sat there gazing into the future of Kendrick.

Hmmm, I could lie and say the future looks fantastic; complete with a mini mansion which holds a three car garage, grotto, a butler, maid, an in home chef and Beyonce slaying in the living room. But to be brutally honest I see the future as most of us see it: uncertain. I have dreams that I would like to come true, I have many ideas and philosophies that I would love to share and goals that I would like to accomplish. So in the present time where I have so many questions and uncertainties I think about the future time and how much or how little time there is.

Time; we don't realize how fast it goes. Maybe because we sit in that boring class repeatedly looking at the clock to see if the hands have moved. Or maybe its that part time job where time seem drip drop like a broken faucet. The point is that we have so much time on our hands to get out and do the things we want to do but it is all about how we utilize those periods of "free time". Are we to enthralled with preexisting ideas or activities that we forget to make time for the things that we want to do or things that are important to us? Yes! And since we can not technically make time then your ass better become an insomniac quick just to keep up with the Jones'. Because the only time you ever catch me sleeping is when I'm tired of you hoes. Until then I'm going to wake my ass up early every morning or just say fuck sleep just to keep time and my future secure. I intend on having all of that mentioned above and more.



So for all of you who are sleeping or simply wandering around with your eyes wide shut. It's time to wake the hell up. Lets get it.




U MAD?


~ Kendrick

The end...but only the begining

So another year is ending and it seems as if 2009 was not only action packed but also extremely short as most times are. Christmas has just passed and all the tinsel, lights and holiday spirit couldn't brighten my outlook on the season. I felt numb. I really don't like holidays because it causes the majority of us to change how we are for one day such as being filled with joy (yea right) and spending over your limit. Anyway, the only thing I like about the whole Xmas season are the sales. You can clean up on Black Friday or wait until my favorite sale... The Winter Clearance sale which usually takes place right after Christmas to give those of you who spent regular price on the same items a big slap in the face.

Lets wrap things up...in 2009 we lost "The King of Pop" a "Charlies Angel" and my girl "TY" (see Clueless). Rihanna destroyed C. Breezy after being manhandled earlier this year. We learned that "Beyonce has one of the Best Videos of All Time... OF ALL TIME!" (Thank you Kanye) and that being a Ho isn't such a bad thing. I mean look at how far Kimmy Kakes, Amber Rose and Cheetah Woods' hoes have gone. I'm not mad...they do what they gotta do! All in all I have had a pretty productive year with traveling and taking steps to be where I want to be. I can taste it. No New Years Resolution for me... I rather salute the year 2009 with two middle fingers high in the air and let it go sit in the corner and think about what it has done. BTW Love you GAGA! Keep it up.

See you next year...

~Kendrick